Fairs, Friends, Flowers, Pink Skies, Birthdays, and Hiding.

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{p.s. it’s officially fall and oxblood is now my favorite color ever/all my outfits- can you tell?}

As it’s beyond obvious, I’ve flown into a bit of a slump/ and or/ in hiding. One of those slumps that happens in our 20s in the most unexpected times. Times where, in the middle of our unstoppable laughter, we stop laughing. I’m usually good with being honest with myself and keeping myself grounded, but a few weeks ago I realized life wasn’t quite reflective of where I thought I would be. Some predisposed notion of where I was supposed to be kept wrapping itself around my mind. A certain place, with certain things, and certain titles, that would validate any shortcomings or be some sort of trophy for obstacles I’ve been through. Perhaps a pretty white office, with fresh flowers, and streets of eccentric people were the answer. Some kind of world governed by Pinterest and Domino magazine was what I was hoping for? The more I felt it ‘haunt’ me, the more I began to ask myself exactly why I was feeling this way.

I’ve came up with a pretty good answer in the past week. Sometimes in the midst of modern communication and feeling inadequate to the constant surge of success we get to compare ourselves to, I often forget to simply and truly…let go. Fearing moments where we don’t feel like we’ve accomplished much takes up a lot of life.  Especially when we’re so connected to how others are doing and where they are in their own life. The funny thing is we often forget we don’t even truly see what we’ve accomplished and left behind in this world until our life is nearing the next world- or whatever we believe in. So, that’s why I’ve been a little, well, gone for the past few weeks. I’m pretty big on giving myself time to reflect and ask ‘why’ when I feel out of balance, it gives our minds a certain independence of thought. So, mostly what I’ve been doing lately is trying to get used to being okay with they way things are now, right now. Maybe I’m not where I thought I would be, but that doesn’t mean I’m not where I’m supposed to be. If I think back at all the steps I’ve taken until this very moment, a lot of them weren’t taken in assurance or even in acceptance, but they did make me grow and become better. That’s all I can ask for. So, maybe these feelings were meant to be so I can eventually get me to another stage of life. Life is a circle, a beautiful circle.

Anyhow, honestly, writing is one of the only ways I feel like my soul is completely whole. And sharing my ponders with you guys is beyond therapeutic, so I don’t think I’ll be gone that long again anytime soon. 🙂

Into lighter news, I’m now 24- my birthday was this past Wednesday. So I suppose I’ll officially be sharing another year in my 20s with you guys. This past one was…colorful, so I’m sure this year won’t be anything less. I could ramble for another hour, but I believe I’ll just breathe and share some of my current photographs I’ve taken of life lately, instead. I have so many that I really couldn’t wait to share some of them. It’s literally a bit of everything- bright sunflowers for bday presents (are the best), pink sky sunsets with friends, my family’s cabin in the mountains of NC (there has been a good amount of reconnecting with nature/the little white shack isn’t the cabin, haha), a pre-baby roller coaster freakout with my niece (while she was totally fine) + her Tinkerbell-inspired birthday, a fun idea for using christmas lights (i.e…my fireplace is epic now), DIY ice-cream cone cupcakes (perhaps a post coming soon?),  oh- and veggie nachos can cure any feeling of being down, my boyfriend picking wildflowers for moi (ahh), etc. Warning: Serious picture randomness is about to take place.

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Hope you find a little inspiration in this post to find you, and be her without doubt (or just a little less than before.)

🙂

til’ next my loves, -xo

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Memorial Weekend: BK; Rain; Beach; Books; Sun; Love; And Other Ponders.

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So I’ve been real MIA for the past few days as some of you may have seen, I didn’t even find the time to post for Monday Morning Madness, but I do hope everyone had a wonderful Memorial Day (as well as weekend)- with lots of good food, friends, and summer-ish entertainment. I ended up spending my Memorial Day weekend in my old home quarters in Brooklyn, NY. It was a needed trip to say the least, but definitely had its’ up and downs weather-wise and other ponders. Anyhow, I was all about doing some awesome posts while I was up because nothing inspires me quite like being in back in NY from the people to the places- but I found that Iphone’s and blogging is quite a mix…aka, posting is real(lll) difficult. So I decided to just live in the moment, take some time to breathe in the city, feel my youth, and catch up with everyone when I returned home to NC. Hope you loves are doing wonderful! Feeling a little of the Vitamin D from this weekend? 🙂 Well I’m sure I’ll be here all week, writing away about anything and everything- from my trip to a little surprise I have in store with a pretty interesting interview (hopefully). Until then, here’s just a couple photos from my Memorial Day weekend/today that kind of made it worthwhile/inspired me. From reading, to taking in some scenery on the beach yesterday, themin’ random matching outfits from one of my best friends-whose basically the boy version of me kinda’ (twins?), to rainy days in NYC (that resembled something of winter at times), peach laced-trim fedora hats that I kinda’ fell in love with AFTER I bought it, and plenty of laughter to even out even the most absurd weather. Oh, and of course mermaid-inspired nail polish with lovely blue skies and a pool to match. Light, fresh, things that this time of year brings bounty of (most of the times, that is, ahem). Anyhow, I’m sure there’s more to come since my Iphone camera and I have become madly in love with one another.

{Pure and Pink Worthy Randoms: Forever 21 Fedora, Sally Hansen polish in ‘S-teal A Base’, Beach Worthy Book ‘Beautiful Ruins’ by Jess Walters, New Josie Maran Summer Lip Shade in ‘Berry Bliss’ (I wore it basically this whole post, ‘obsessed’ is an understatement) p.s…we ate from Bliss Cafe in Williamsburg in the shot below-it’s a cozy little nook for lunch if you’re in the area and want something on the healthier side. It’s the little things. xoxo}

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