Fairs, Friends, Flowers, Pink Skies, Birthdays, and Hiding.

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{p.s. it’s officially fall and oxblood is now my favorite color ever/all my outfits- can you tell?}

As it’s beyond obvious, I’ve flown into a bit of a slump/ and or/ in hiding. One of those slumps that happens in our 20s in the most unexpected times. Times where, in the middle of our unstoppable laughter, we stop laughing. I’m usually good with being honest with myself and keeping myself grounded, but a few weeks ago I realized life wasn’t quite reflective of where I thought I would be. Some predisposed notion of where I was supposed to be kept wrapping itself around my mind. A certain place, with certain things, and certain titles, that would validate any shortcomings or be some sort of trophy for obstacles I’ve been through. Perhaps a pretty white office, with fresh flowers, and streets of eccentric people were the answer. Some kind of world governed by Pinterest and Domino magazine was what I was hoping for? The more I felt it ‘haunt’ me, the more I began to ask myself exactly why I was feeling this way.

I’ve came up with a pretty good answer in the past week. Sometimes in the midst of modern communication and feeling inadequate to the constant surge of success we get to compare ourselves to, I often forget to simply and truly…let go. Fearing moments where we don’t feel like we’ve accomplished much takes up a lot of life.  Especially when we’re so connected to how others are doing and where they are in their own life. The funny thing is we often forget we don’t even truly see what we’ve accomplished and left behind in this world until our life is nearing the next world- or whatever we believe in. So, that’s why I’ve been a little, well, gone for the past few weeks. I’m pretty big on giving myself time to reflect and ask ‘why’ when I feel out of balance, it gives our minds a certain independence of thought. So, mostly what I’ve been doing lately is trying to get used to being okay with they way things are now, right now. Maybe I’m not where I thought I would be, but that doesn’t mean I’m not where I’m supposed to be. If I think back at all the steps I’ve taken until this very moment, a lot of them weren’t taken in assurance or even in acceptance, but they did make me grow and become better. That’s all I can ask for. So, maybe these feelings were meant to be so I can eventually get me to another stage of life. Life is a circle, a beautiful circle.

Anyhow, honestly, writing is one of the only ways I feel like my soul is completely whole. And sharing my ponders with you guys is beyond therapeutic, so I don’t think I’ll be gone that long again anytime soon. 🙂

Into lighter news, I’m now 24- my birthday was this past Wednesday. So I suppose I’ll officially be sharing another year in my 20s with you guys. This past one was…colorful, so I’m sure this year won’t be anything less. I could ramble for another hour, but I believe I’ll just breathe and share some of my current photographs I’ve taken of life lately, instead. I have so many that I really couldn’t wait to share some of them. It’s literally a bit of everything- bright sunflowers for bday presents (are the best), pink sky sunsets with friends, my family’s cabin in the mountains of NC (there has been a good amount of reconnecting with nature/the little white shack isn’t the cabin, haha), a pre-baby roller coaster freakout with my niece (while she was totally fine) + her Tinkerbell-inspired birthday, a fun idea for using christmas lights (i.e…my fireplace is epic now), DIY ice-cream cone cupcakes (perhaps a post coming soon?),  oh- and veggie nachos can cure any feeling of being down, my boyfriend picking wildflowers for moi (ahh), etc. Warning: Serious picture randomness is about to take place.

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Hope you find a little inspiration in this post to find you, and be her without doubt (or just a little less than before.)

🙂

til’ next my loves, -xo

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Saturday Mornings: Food & Fashion.

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{raga animal print sweater}

Many moments I’ve found myself in lately have been ‘catastrophically awesome’. I believe this is going to be a new term with a serious phase in front of it. What exactly do I mean? Well, it means that is pretty much the feeling that goes hand-in-hand with your 20s. I’ve found myself here and there, worried about things we simply shouldn’t worry about, because they will happen one way or another. However, trying to keep little spaces in my day where I’m doing tiny things to try and cohesively mend whatever is bothering me has seemed to help a lot. Like taking a few moments to flip through a magazine, or devote time to particular projects I’m working on, looking through recipes I’d like to try out, start a new DIY project, etc. Last week, I even re-purposed a book solely for the purpose of ‘writing to the Universe.’ Why yes, my loves, it does sound a bit crazy. However, I highly recommend trying it out. Mostly because after I’ve been doing it I feel like things have been smoothing themselves out all in the presence of good vibes and karma. Who knows? Maybe the Universe is indeed listening to us if we just say what we’re thinking, and direct it its’ way. I’ve really been on this Eat, Pray, Love (like with this article I just finished, Eat, Pray, Love Intentionally) kick lately. But hey, if things end up being ‘catastrophically awesome’…I’ll take it. 

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In other realms of life, you can see, above, this Saturday has been consistent with Blackberry Muffin Cakes, coffee, and unintentional matching of Nordstrom Anniversary finds. Food & fashion, true loves. The link to my (on sale) sweater is above, and it’s the softest most amazing sweater to perhaps ever grace the earth. I love it. Plus the print was too wonderful not to dream of wearing it everyday, even in the middle of summer. Bless me. Anyhow, this morning I grabbed some of summer’s prettiest Blackberries from the farmer’s market and decided to whip up mini blackberry cakes…which ended up being mostly blueberry/half blackberry. But whatever. The Blackberries were prettier and stole the show. I included my gluten-free recipe to them, below. I have a real love affair with blueberry muffins, so I wanted the classic to be the base, but with added blackberries for a pretty summer dessert that incorporated the best of both worlds. I like the idea of mini cakes mostly because it feels a little more dangerous than regular muffins- yet these are pretty much guilt-free. Feel free to play with this recipe as much as you like, as always. Hope you’re having a lovely, calm, de-stressed, Saturday. xoxo.

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mini blackberry cakes

ingredients

1 3/4 cup of brown rice flour 

1 cup of naturally sweetened vanilla almond milk

2 eggs 

1 tsp. baking powder

1/4 cup of grapeseed oil (I eyed it, so tread lightly with the oil)

1/2 cup coconut palm sugar 

1 tbsp. agave syrup 

1 cup blueberries (mine were frozen, I’m a cheat)

1/2 cup farmer’s market blackberries

 Preheat oven to 375 degrees. Mix brown rice flour, almond milk, eggs, and grapeseed oil. After broken down, add all sugar- agave and coconut palm, and your baking powder. Next, carefully fold in your berries so they stay whole and do not break apart in your batter. Pour into your pan (I used my tart pan for the ‘cake’ vibe.) Bake for 20 minutes. Enjoy with your favorite Nordstrom anniversary sweater, of course. 

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