Fairs, Friends, Flowers, Pink Skies, Birthdays, and Hiding.

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{p.s. it’s officially fall and oxblood is now my favorite color ever/all my outfits- can you tell?}

As it’s beyond obvious, I’ve flown into a bit of a slump/ and or/ in hiding. One of those slumps that happens in our 20s in the most unexpected times. Times where, in the middle of our unstoppable laughter, we stop laughing. I’m usually good with being honest with myself and keeping myself grounded, but a few weeks ago I realized life wasn’t quite reflective of where I thought I would be. Some predisposed notion of where I was supposed to be kept wrapping itself around my mind. A certain place, with certain things, and certain titles, that would validate any shortcomings or be some sort of trophy for obstacles I’ve been through. Perhaps a pretty white office, with fresh flowers, and streets of eccentric people were the answer. Some kind of world governed by Pinterest and Domino magazine was what I was hoping for? The more I felt it ‘haunt’ me, the more I began to ask myself exactly why I was feeling this way.

I’ve came up with a pretty good answer in the past week. Sometimes in the midst of modern communication and feeling inadequate to the constant surge of success we get to compare ourselves to, I often forget to simply and truly…let go. Fearing moments where we don’t feel like we’ve accomplished much takes up a lot of life.  Especially when we’re so connected to how others are doing and where they are in their own life. The funny thing is we often forget we don’t even truly see what we’ve accomplished and left behind in this world until our life is nearing the next world- or whatever we believe in. So, that’s why I’ve been a little, well, gone for the past few weeks. I’m pretty big on giving myself time to reflect and ask ‘why’ when I feel out of balance, it gives our minds a certain independence of thought. So, mostly what I’ve been doing lately is trying to get used to being okay with they way things are now, right now. Maybe I’m not where I thought I would be, but that doesn’t mean I’m not where I’m supposed to be. If I think back at all the steps I’ve taken until this very moment, a lot of them weren’t taken in assurance or even in acceptance, but they did make me grow and become better. That’s all I can ask for. So, maybe these feelings were meant to be so I can eventually get me to another stage of life. Life is a circle, a beautiful circle.

Anyhow, honestly, writing is one of the only ways I feel like my soul is completely whole. And sharing my ponders with you guys is beyond therapeutic, so I don’t think I’ll be gone that long again anytime soon. 🙂

Into lighter news, I’m now 24- my birthday was this past Wednesday. So I suppose I’ll officially be sharing another year in my 20s with you guys. This past one was…colorful, so I’m sure this year won’t be anything less. I could ramble for another hour, but I believe I’ll just breathe and share some of my current photographs I’ve taken of life lately, instead. I have so many that I really couldn’t wait to share some of them. It’s literally a bit of everything- bright sunflowers for bday presents (are the best), pink sky sunsets with friends, my family’s cabin in the mountains of NC (there has been a good amount of reconnecting with nature/the little white shack isn’t the cabin, haha), a pre-baby roller coaster freakout with my niece (while she was totally fine) + her Tinkerbell-inspired birthday, a fun idea for using christmas lights (i.e…my fireplace is epic now), DIY ice-cream cone cupcakes (perhaps a post coming soon?),  oh- and veggie nachos can cure any feeling of being down, my boyfriend picking wildflowers for moi (ahh), etc. Warning: Serious picture randomness is about to take place.

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Hope you find a little inspiration in this post to find you, and be her without doubt (or just a little less than before.)

🙂

til’ next my loves, -xo

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In My Cup: Life Lately, In Pictures

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Happy Tuesday, loves. Hope yours was all lovely. This week has been about adjusting and embracing, so far.  So, I figured today’s post I would share what has been balancing the notorious moods of being 20something. You know, those marvelous moments of bucket-list achievement-highs with a wonderful side of, ‘Oh, my god, what is my life?!‘  Makes me laugh, but it’s so true. Don’t you love it?  Anyhow, last week marked my first article/DIY with Zooey Magazine (which I’m kind of thrilled about, it was too fun!), definitely my ’embracing’ side of the week. It was complete with lots of pineapples, as you will see. (ha)

As far as the ‘adjusting’ side I’m talking about, I suppose it’s mostly my constant ‘control freak spazz’ moments that often times equals the emotion of ‘overwhelming.’  So, how to battle that feeling? Well, in-between Zooey’s little project I was at my best friend’s home for the weekend and got to catch up with her.  That was nice, and definitely a sort of balance I was looking for. We drank pre-fall pumpkin beers (which made us way too excited) happily while cooking and listening to Frank Sinatra, talked like teenage girls, and laughed a lot. Complete with this adorable movie called, ready? ‘Cheesecake Casserole’ that we stumbled upon on Netflix, that we have no shame in recommending, we’ll say. Also, I was visiting my parent’s home (which is in the foothills of NC) and found myself finding really beautiful moments in nature. It’s so calming to find places that used to make you comfortable as a child, don’t you think? Also, this week was apparently ‘national dog day’, who knew? I got a hilarious picture of Ciel looking like she was praying- am I crazy? Yes, and sadly I was all about it, ‘Aw, look! Ciel was definitely Indian in her past life!”  No big deal or anything (lol.) Anyhow, figured I would share some of my ‘life lately’ moments with you guys, xo.

Tell me, what are little things you guys do to find a little ‘peace’ in this sometimes hectic world? I would love to hear!

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{one of my favorite places to swing, sing, and think about life, as a child xo}

True Life 20s: Who Misses Daria?

True Life 20s: Who Misses Daria?

1990s where did you go? Can I at least have one more Hanson hit in 2013 and pretend Zac Hanson is my lover? No, you say?…Oh, cool.